This ceremony was to be dedicated to a more practical matter – what am I going to do in future? I knew that I didn’t want to work full time in IT, and that I particularly had no interest in any kind of programming or administration work any longer. I knew I had a broad…
My intention for this ceremony was to continue the work from last ceremony. I decided to drink the fowl tasting stuff rather than risking a repeat of the previous disaster by using capsules. I recalled Javier saying, “it’s nothing to do with the capsules, it’s you,” but I didn’t believe him. The last ceremony was…
This was my first ceremony in about 6 months. I’d left Peru in between and spent time in Spain and the UK. I foolishly left thinking that I would simply maintain my new awareness and state of being without the need for any kind of supportive practice. Slowly but surely, my old habits and patterns…
So today’s ceremony was the beginning of a new chapter. There was a real shift in the feel of the ceremony and the kind of work I was doing. There was far less internal struggle, and I didn’t feel any major repressed issues surfacing – for the first time I knew which way was up….
Today was the last ceremony of our 10 day retreat, and hailed a wonderful breakthrough. I felt that the majority of the heavy energy had left me – no anger, frustration, misery or self-hatred. I sat quite happily for a couple of hours before beginning to feel sick. Rather than trying to force myself to…
We met at 8am as usual and drunk as soon as possible. I had the same amount of medicine as the previous ceremony. For the first couple of hours, I was feeling pretty good. No anger, no anxiety, only slightly nauseous. I spent most of the morning just lying in the Maloka and enjoying the…
It seems that each ceremony gets tougher and tougher. I had slightly less of the medicine today than in the previous ceremony but the effects were the most profound to date. I spent the first couple of hours just relaxing and enjoying the feelings and sensations that came. As usual, I thought to myself, “I’ve…
Today was the first San Pedro ceremony in our 10 day retreat with Javier. We went for a hike to the Moray ruins on the 5th and also discussed the ceremony format and so on, which we were already familiar with. My intention for the ceremony was to continue the work from the past ceremony,…
Various factors came together to make the day a very painful but mind blowing experience. I had caught a cold and felt pretty bad. My face was congested and I had a mild fever. I was starting to feel slightly better the morning of the hike and so decided to go ahead. After a 45…
The day had finally come! I was nervous and excited about my first Ayahuasca ceremony. I had heard that the purging during the Ayahuasca ceremony is particularly violent for most people. Javier asked us to come to the ceremony with an intention. We discussed our intentions with him beforehand in private, and by the end…
